Let It Be Ur Inspiration

For me, the best way to clear my mind and make myself feel better is to create something. I let my anger, pain, or frustration be my inspiration. There are different ways that I go about this.
I was feeling sad and angry about my father’s death one day. Instead of crying alone or taking out the anger I had on my family, I sat down and wrote about it. That way I was able to get it out but no one had to hear me. It did make me feel better to get the feelings out. I do not want to bottle emotions to the point where I explode over things that may not be that serious. So I will write a poem or a letter. Sometimes I tuck them away and save them so I can reflect on my feelings. Other times I throw them out. It depends on the mood and the subject matter of the words.


A Letter to My Daddy
It's been 20 years, oh wait, five that you have an excuse for.
Now do you miss me daddy?
No, hasn't been that long right.
I had another baby, he's beautiful, did you see?
What did I do to deserve this?
Was I that bad as a kid?
What if I would have found you?
Then would you have tried to live?
Today is a very sad day.
A memory long gone.
But had I only tried harder,
Would you have held on?
I miss you though I try not to.
I just can't hold back the tears
As I dream about what could have been
Through all the misplaced years.
Remember the last time you seen me?
What did I even say?
Did I tell you that I love you?
If not, I will today.
I love you daddy.